Tuesday, November 29, 2022

It's time - part 1


For part 2 click here: Azotarme duro

It's one of those recurring dreams that you know beat-by-beat and every painstaking detail of it, but still, there is always something new, something that will throw you for a loop, make you pang at the end, and wake up, shaking and drenched in cold sweat.

    The first difference was that Nick was in it, sitting next to her, in a black tux, a crisp white shirt with a blue velvet bowtie, surprisingly still tied around his neck, more handsome than ever, if that was even humanly possible. One hand on the back of her neck, toying with the clasp of her pearl choker necklace and loose strands of hair. In his other hand he holds up another strawberry for her to bite on, the red juice dripping into his palm, high enough for her to comfortably lean to, far enough not to stain her white wedding dress. The venue of five hundred faceless guests buzzes in a blur. Nick looks at her and her only, like feeding her with these overripe strawberries that smell of summer is what he was put on this earth for.

    The faceless best man quiets the crowd and delivers his speech, punctuated by prompt eruptions of laughter. When he mentions for the third time that today Izzie got all her dreams come true, she clears her throat, straightens her already straight back, and gestures for a microphone.

    She gulps down her fear and speaks up, enunciating every syllable, "I dream of... I want to be whipped with a belt senseless," the crowd grows silent,  "through sobs and pleas, and then some." The strawberry rolls out of Nick's fingers and onto the white dress, leaving a bloody path behind. His eyes round into a silent 'no' full of terror that quickly changes into the one of a quiet fury. "And after that, rogered six ways to Sunday."

    The back of her brain registers a collective gasp and soaks up the utter humiliation. Blushing bride indeed, she feels the rush of blood to her cheeks, creeping up with red.

    The faceless best man picks up the mic that dropped on the table with a thud. The band picks up where it left with some ridiculously cheerful tune. The silence fills back with murmur.

    Nick's fingers, sticky from the strawberry juice, intertwine with hers. "Not sure which part you should dread more." He lifts her hand to kiss the knuckles. "Such a lovely blush, red suits you," his thumb brushes against her burning cheek. "So, you want your other cheeks in a matching colour?"

    "Look at me," his other hand, still grazing her nape, now firmly guides her to look up. This doesn't sound like Nick, this conversation that never happened has Aldous all over it. Like Aldous's words coming out of Nick's mouth.

    Nick rises on his feet, pulling her up with him. "It's time." It's time, echoes in her head, the time-honored code phrase that means only one thing, for those who know. It's time.

For part 2 click here: Azotarme duro

Saturday, November 26, 2022

May I have another?

Not surprisingly, Nick feels more comfortable within the roleplay scenario, especially our own tried-and-true. He knows now that he is not hurting me but being able to experience it as a different persona, allows him to relax and truly enjoy it, and who am I to complain.

    My mermaid costume got more mileage with a new twist, in order to get her wish granted, new legs and all, the Mermaid has to be spanked by the Fisherman. And if Princess Summer bumps into the Peasant Boy while prancing around her lavender fields, needless to say, the next morning her royal bum requires an extra pillow to sit on. The only one he refuses to repeat is Milord and Milady’s wedding night, a hint, Milord has a swordbelt. Well, virginity is one of my kinks he’s not happy to oblige. Funny enough that was the first time when he deliberately differentiated Milord from Nick and mercilessly pecked at Nick.

    In Nick's version of all-time fans’ favourite, Little Red Riding Hood and Big Bad Wolf got married and lived happily ever after. Unless, of course, Red happens to cook up a storm, packs some freshly baked empanadas and home-made pickles, and goes to visit her grandmother, or, ahem, some girlfriend in New York, alone, ditching the security, again. Then all bets are off, as Wolfie takes the security rule too close to his heart, and no lingerie set, even red, will distract him from the task at hand or in hand. Red is a very sorry good girl after everything is said and done, mostly done. This one had too much resemblance to real life, for my liking. 

    But roleplaying as Dom and sub? That’s Dominant and submissive for you, vanilla people, although I doubt that anyone needs a translation since The Fifty came out. How is it different from actually being D/s in the bedroom, beats me, no pun intended. Are we gradually slipping into the bedroom D/s? I don’t know, don’t fix what’s not broken. Nick-what-Nick, it’s Sir for you, young lady.

    “Are you going to count this one, or shall I start again?” Nick raises an eyebrow.

    “No, Sir. One. Thank you, Sir.”

    We are on the same couch that Nick promised to burn after the Disaster, in the same position, my knees on the seat, bent at the waist, head on the folded hands on the back of the couch, hair in a high ponytail. I wear my favourite short dress with long sleeves, it’s comfortable and loose enough for an easy access. Nick says that access should be my middle name, you know, Izzie Access, yeah, Nick and his dad jokes.

    I glance at him over my shoulder and catch a tiny devilish twinkle in his eyes. What a sight! When he came in after work, he already took his suit jacket off and held it in his hand, while tugging at the tie with the other. He always looks strikingly handsome, like a teenager in a forty-four-year-old body, but now in a white shirt with the sleeves rolled up and the undone tie hanging loose around the open collar, just wow. I looked perfect fifteen years ago, he is perfect now. Nick clears his throat and combs hair to the side with his hand, his version of ‘eyes up here’. The long and bumpy road that brought us to this moment was all worth it. I smile at the thought, and Nick beams back with pride.

    “Good girl. You're welcome." Nick is oozing with buzzwords, and so am I. The edge of the belt taps my bare cheek. “Back in the position.” Swat.

    “Two. Thank you, Sir. May I have another?”

    “You may,” he smirks at a classic phrase, “but no need for such formality. Are you trying to slow me down?" Three more strokes come in a quick succession.

    “Three, four, five, Sir,” I quip.

    “No, darling, that was extra for stalling.” Sir is in a playful mood but does not hesitate to add extra swats for any infraction, bogus or real. Shocking how much his aim had improved. I don’t want to know where he gets the tips on his belting technique, but now he holds the business end with the other hand and lets it go the last moment, so there is no more twisting, but ouch, he can aim for the same spot and get it, if he wants to.

    My hand flies back to cover my butt, and he catches it just in time, the belt landing on my thighs, quelle surprise, as a reprimand for trying to block. It hurts like hell. “Nick, you bloody bastard!”

    “Ah!" Nick gasps for air with a thoroughly faked offence. "I don't even know what number to assign to such obscenity.”

    “Then don't!” I slap my hand on the back of the couch and straighten my back.

    “Colour?”

    “Bloody green, get on with it.” The hand on the small of my back nudges me down.

    “Who is that Nick fella?" Swat. "I asked you a question."

    “No one, sir.”

    “Then why do I keep hearing his name from you, hmm?”

    “Won't happen again, sir.”

    “Was he a lousy lay?” he lays the trap. Ouch!

    "Yes, sir. No." Smack! I bit my tongue. "No one is like you, sir."

    "Too late," he withdraws. The belt buckle hits the floor with a loud clang. "Corner!"

    “There are no corners in this room,” I protest. It’s so unfair! That question doesn’t have a right answer, whatever I say, he can turn it against me.

    “Have no doubts, I’ll make one for you.” He promptly drags the heavy armchair out of the corner and taps the wall. I pull up my panties and head over. “I do not recall giving you a permission to put your panties back on.”

    “Sorry, sir.” He is still there, standing by the corner. He wouldn’t move, and I have to squeeze in to get into my not so solitary destination.

    “I'm not done with you, young lady,” he scowls as he pulls the panties down himself.

    “Thank you, sir,” I whisper.

    “For what?”

    I can feel him pressing against my back. What does it mean? He wanted me badly, I screwed up, he put me in the corner, and now he can’t find a way out. Sir needs help, my Baby Dom needs help. Helping is not topping, helping is guiding.

    “For not being done with me." I turn around to see his reaction.

    “Nose to the wall.”

    “Yes, sir.”

    “Did you have to say it?” he lilts in his signature English accent.  

    “Nnn--,” I stutter, “Sir said it first, I just confirmed, I’m sorry.”

    “Well, you shouldn't have.”

    “It’s not fair. It’s hard to think when my ass is on fire.”

    “Your bum,” his hand promptly smacks my bum. “Or bottom, rear, behind, backside. So many excellent choices.” The art of punctuating, another one he mastered recently. He so rarely spanks me with his hand, I don’t know what to make of it. With his super low pain tolerance, just a few smacks send him howling, so he either decided to suck it in or maxed out on his daily painkillers just to indulge me.

    “I'm truly sorry.” I turn around again to face him, and this time he doesn’t stop me.

    “You will be sorrier.” Hands in his pockets, rocking on his heels, that’s more like it.

    “May I please come back?”

    “You surely may,” he gestures back to the couch. I trudge back with the panties around the ankles. I make it look more difficult than it is, anything to distract Nick from his funk.

    “Nick looks very much like Sir, same eyes, same hair.”

    “Same dick?” he wonders matter-of-factly, as he helps me to climb back on the couch.

    “I would never compare Sir's cock with another--"

    “Pray tell,” he nods, pleased that I switched to the allowed nomenclature of body parts.

    “Only Sir knows what I truly need and gives it to me. Will you please forgive me?”

    “In due time.”

    “Will you please help me earn your forgiveness?” Why is it that one of us always have to screw up and crawl back, only this time it’s also my butt on the line.

    He finally picks up the belt from the floor and folds it in half. Here goes the scolding and the lecture rolled in one, punctuated with the loud blows for the extra clarity, but his anguish and disappointment hurt more than the sting of the belt.

    “Whom do you belong to?”

    “You, Sir.”

    “Whom do you obey?”

    “You, Sir.”

    “Who takes care of you?”

    “You, Sir.”

    “Makes you happy?”

    “You, Sir.”

    “What about Nick?” he pauses.

    “I need both you and Nick in my life. No," I raise my hand to stop him and turn around. "I need Nick more than I need you, Sir. With all due respect, without Nick, none of this matter." His face is mere inches away from mine, hurt melting away from his eyes. It takes all my willpower not to close the distance. I do not touch Sir without permission, Sir touches me, Sir uses me as he deems fit, Sir most definitely does not kiss.

    Nick’s lips, as always, taste like strawberries, duh, he’s addicted to the strawberry gum and probably had a strawberry mousse cake in strawberry reduction for dessert. He picks me up to carry to bed. Sir is gone, it’s all Nick now, his strawberry lips all over me, bringing me to the oh-mon-dieu-Nicky moment in a record time. He follows me with a sing-a-song ‘oh darling’ instead of the usual ‘oh fuck’ and collapses beside me, both of us sinking quickly into a deep dreamless sleep, and I cannot be happier.


Tuesday, November 22, 2022

Dear Bonnie

Dear Bonnie,

what a sad day to de-lurk... what they all said and much more. My journey is quite different. I wish I would discover your blog 15 years ago and not this summer.

Full disclosure, I'm vanilla, although as I learned now, so many little quirks count as kinks. For that matter, what really constitutes a spanking? A smack or two do not count, right? What about three or five? Where to draw the line, or better not to? So, I was writing a novel, quite steamy but vanilla, and one summer day, I wrote a scene that involved a spanking that went horribly wrong (they didn't know about Bonnie's writings), wrote it without any research, purely on emotions. And then, to justify what happened and why, plunged into research. BTW, I was right, I described bratting and topping from the bottom without knowing what it is.

MBS was the second spanko blog I found, right after an extreme CDD one. Thankfully, MBS is linked on virtually every blog throughout the blogosphere, and boy, did I stay in this impossible vast, skillfully crafted, generously shared Body of Knowledge. The tutorials alone, I read at least twice each and most, many times over: the elusive why (my favourite), how to talk to your partner, first spanking, fantasy vs reality, bratting, anticipation, letting go (a gem), implements, rituals, more rituals. When in doubt, read Bonnie's tutorial.

I'm still vanilla, leaving vicariously through my characters, following their ebbs and flows, letting them make mistakes, but knowing one thing for sure, I want them to become more like Bonnie and Randy, be themselves, find the way that works for them, because every couple is different, and forget the labels.

There is no sadder day for a lurker and purveyor of fine blogs to find a blog (or forum) written by a brilliant author, smart, intelligent, bold, and sincere, only to discover that the blog is discontinued (not to say dead). A word of advice for those who like me just read, do comment, drop a few words, ask for an advice before it's too late.

Bonnie, I have a parting gift for you, a song/poem called A Bottom Song Since I didn't know how to send it to you, I registered a blog today and posted it there, for Bonnie who redefined the word Bottom.

Becca 

Sunday, November 20, 2022

A Bottom Song



For Bonnie who redefined the word Bottom

Sassy bottom
Testing bottom
Itchy bottom  
Scorned

Teasing bottom 
Mocking bottom 
Craving bottom 
Warned

Bratty bottom
Topping bottom
Needy bottom 
Tried

Wronged bottom
Scolded bottom
Railing bottom 
Fight

Worried bottom 
Dancing bottom 
Squirmy bottom
Knelt

Naked bottom  
Stinging bottom 
Warming bottom
Dealt

Wiggling bottom 
Blocking bottom
Kicking bottom
Struggled

Holding bottom
Smarting bottom
Reddened bottom
Doubled

Crying bottom
Begging bottom 
Sobbing bottom 
Pleads

Sorry bottom 
Softened bottom
Quiet bottom
Peace

Light bottom 
Safe bottom
Loved bottom
Floats

Hugged bottom 
Rubbed bottom
Soothed bottom
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